I go by the name of Heather. I am a junior at the University of Maine studying music. Family and friends mean the world to me and I don't know where I would be without them. I suffer from Bi-polar 2 disorder and ADHD. I'm finally coming to terms with my mental condition and am learning how to appreciate the life I was given.

 

the cold weather makes me feel like I have arthritis in my hands. typing actually hurts right now. ughhhh

Am I the only person who is depressed every single day for the most bizarre reasons?

I have the worst view on life. I go through everyday with a knot in my stomach because I know all good this end and that absolutely everyone who loves you will leave you eventually because unfortunately they’re mortal and they die. It’s nature and it’s painful. I’m terrified of the day I lose my parents, my siblings, everyone who has loves me and been with me through thick and thin. I won’t be able to function. This is why sometimes I think it would be easier to die before them because then I won’t have to see them leave me. But it’s selfish of me to leave them. This is where I am conflicted. Either way I’m going to be in pain. Life is just to much for me right now.